WOW. man of God? or what... you tell me. DMV? sweet deal, i'll call you about renewing your license tool bag.
well that kept me down for a total of 2.5 seconds. (i tend to get over things quickly, it totally normal)
the rest of my classes went well. i learned how to spell medieval today in class.. no worries i was in a game for my education class and i spelled it with an E and lost. yea, tough break i know.
as for the rest of my day... it consisted on discovering i lost 8 pounds. and you would think 8 no big deal. minor problem, it's a HUGE deal for me. when i'm upset i starve... when my stomach is in knots i starve. it's just i miss him. with every inch and breath of me... i miss him. i keep thinking maybe it's a dream and i'll wake up and there he will be. or that my phone will light up and his number will pop up. but who am i kidding, my life has never nor will ever be a fairy tale. you win some you lose some. life goes on... you choose to feel the way you do.
i'm REAL good at it too. REAL good at faking i'm okay. i've done it my whole life. i think hiding behind my smile is the easiest thing to do. you be strong to people and you lay in bed and cry at night, it's simple. it's life.
soo.. i'm either semi pathetic or just head over heels in love (which i choose love) "his" senior night baseball game was tonight. i went. looking super cute of course. but i thought i could handle it but i couldn't. my tears were so bad i kept my sunglasses on for most of the night. never let them see a tear. i could bore you with details and matters that upset me, but that's just too much information. at the end of the day, i still love and care about him... even if the feeling isn't mutual. i'll always be that girl... that cares about someone else before my own emotions. and i'll never change...
things can ONLY go up from here on out... or at least that's what i keep telling myself...