Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I wake up and think dreams are real.
I sleep so I don’t have to feel.
I scream and cry to pass my time.
The days grow longer, the nights get harder.
I think of you every minute of every hour
I wonder if it’ll ever change.
If I’ll ever laugh again.
The days drag on, a smile behind tears.
Losing you; my biggest fear.
My shoulder, my rock, the one that I called mine.
My heart won’t heal this time.
I’m left here with sadness and sorrow.
I’m left here with confusion and wonder.
I’m left here with a memory of you.
And I’m left here repeatedly saying I love you.
If you never come back to me, I’ll never be just right.
You were my one and only Mr. Right.
The smiles you brought me the love and laughter we shared.
Now are memories that fill up the air.
... i just came to the conclusion i'm super lame/super emotional. whichever is more embarrassing i would rather not know.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
this weekend was nothing short of PERFECT. and when i say "perfect" i mean an epic fail.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
i've went from VIRGINIA to FLORIDA to IDAHO to FLORIDA againnn..
but this time its permanent.
i went from being someone who had everything together, to completely living life day by day. someone who put themselves before others, and believed in the best... when i should have thought the worst.
i am CURRENTLY still in flori-duhh. school has two weeks left.
luckily, i will be here this summer.. living two minutes from target which might cause a hole in my pocket. it never fails, i can find ANYTHING at target. even when i'm not looking.
i MISS my family. more importantly my MOM. my best friend. i talk to her at least 50 times a day. i love that woman. i miss days of cuddling in my room watching movies and talking. BUT how could i not miss the countless trips to the mall and the laughs we could carry on for hours. july can't come soon enough.
my life consists of school and work. i work at my ex boyfriends dad's restaurant. maybe that will seem funny further down the road. however, i enjoy it. it's a family sports bar. dealing with the public can be OBNOXIOUS but it is what you make it. it's about to be summer and my life will still consist of school and work. UNTIL JULY. i'll be in virginia. in my home. MY bed. with my family. we're the family that could honestly have our OWN reality tv show.
i started all new sorts of hobbies with my spare time. reading gets me out of my own DRAMA and into other's. but now i guess blogging is a way for me to get my emotions/thoughts out. we'll see how well that goes...